I just gave up instandly

Since her birthday had passed 2 weeks ago

many thing just happened without a warning

it just happen like a natural disaster in my heart

i admit tht i have chase some girls before last time

but i think tht this time i have hurt myself the most in my life time

i don't know why it will happen like this to me

i just can't accept the truth of it

on tht night of her birthday

she suddenly sms me and told me a things tht happened in her bus

after i saw the message tht she wrote to me

the message was quite long

after i read tht,

i was just completely stunted and speechless

after days and days had passed

i tried to sms her whether is it true tht what she told me

after she replied with a positive

i was just...

distract from the reply tht i see

i can't believe it happen on both of them

but nt me

For these few days

i was just thinking tht

why God didn't let a miracle happen on me?

i was just hoping for a single miracle tht can happened on me

but it didn't happened on me

nt even once

i was struggling to find the weak point tht i didn't realise on myself

i was thinking for days and nights

but until nowadays

i still can't find it out

i was just hoping tht God will tell my weak point

After tht incident happened

i just gave up on what i did on her

i was completely lost direction in anything

when tht incident who happening

i was having my PMR trial exam

in the exam i wasn't really focusing on my exam

because of thinking back of what she told me by sms tht day

when i'm still in a bad mood tht day

i was just thinking

"can i take back my money from you on what i bought for you?"

"total it cost about RM200 on it"

i was completely out of my mind on what i said to myself

so sometimes i think tht "love" is also a great power for everyone of us

Now my thinking had change back to positive already

now i'm at least better then tht day tht i have negative thinking

i must thanks for my friends who had encourage me all time

without them..

now i won't still don't have the mood to update my blog

 i think God thinks tht i'm still nt suitable to have a date now with people

God just done this for my own good

maybe i also shouldn't blame the Lord

maybe he thinks tht i'm still don't have the strength to protect someone i love

or maybe i'm still haven matured enough in my life time

I will support God's opinion in anything

Thank God for knewing you in my life

you're my Saviour in my life

you are the one who save my soul in any incidents

Amen~

you guys no need to worry me

i will be alright

eventhough i still haven 100% let it go

but i will try my best to

i will update my blog as fast as i gt any new things happen on me

rmb to smile always you guys :)

byebye