Education or Relationship

well... many things happen at school and my life too....

exam just over today...

it should be happy for everybody for us...

but i didn't feel any happiness or fun feeling in my heart

maybe is because of her attitude that makes me dull...

ISH.. that was sucks man....

this is shouldn't be happening in me

but i just couldn't control my feelings about her

i'm just lost in anything

i did find some friends to help me in it...

thanks for those helping me in it...

i'm glad that i have all of you...

actually am i that sucks?

what makes people think of i'm that... sucks?

i know that i'm childish

but i'm trying to improve myself in anything of my weakness

one of my friends said

looking isn't the most important...

the important thing is the way you treat her

actually is very hard to find a suitable girl

for some people

nowadays i don't know what had happen to her...

keep un-reply me at all since exam starts

and today at tuition time

i just can't stand it

just grab my phone and sms her

but surprisingly

she did reply me back

i said "exam is over already, can sms?"

then she replied "cannot"

i replied her again say why?

then my phone just remain silent

i was just thinking

"did i do something wrong to her or what?"

i was so hurt about it 

and it makes me sometimes so emotional at school...

my friend ask me to find her at a suitable time and talk to her

not that i wasn't dare

i just... i don't know what to say when i'm facing her

sometimes i look at her

i'm speechless for some moment

now i lost in this thing

i tried to stop thinking bout it and stay away from it

but it just came to my mind instantly

so i will try to find someday to have a talk with her by face to face

hope that all the things will be fine

let the God let my way...

see ya