Christmas again!!!

is Christmas again!!

i'm so glad tht Christmas is once again happening at Malaysia..

everything seems fine here..

nothing much on Malaysia..

I did get some relaxing moment *alone* at home :P

but at least I had finish those things that I need to finished for this year

 1st. PMR of course

2nd. my violin Grade 8 exam

I felt so relax after finish all these exams that i should take

but since holiday starts

I didn't when out much this holiday

I just when out station with friends and family only

1.  went to Terengganu with family and some friends

2. went to P.Penang with school friends

3. went to Singapore and friends too but nothing much to walk around there

but at least I manage to get myself into vacation activities :D

other then that nothing else left

just staying at house like a nerd without doing anythings

i was bored to death

I have no idea who to chat with

and also no one find me to chat also

but this happens to me every holidays.. TT

few hours ago 

my mood just sink bottom of my heart after having some small chat with my mom

i was thinking

"why you have to mention about it again?" ><

but nvm

i still have to accept the truth bout it

nowadays i don't know why i felt very lonely this year

i didn't even think about anyone in my mind

just felt sudden lonely in myself

and somemore i have to take results at 23rd Dec at school!!

i'm worried that my result will gone bad instantly..

if that really happen to me

my parents even may kill me anytime..

I just hope that God will make me confident on my result that i want to get

once i mention bout my PMR results..

im getting nervous now my feeling

ish.. i don't know what am i gonna do

the most important now is i won't get bad results for my PMR..

hope God will give me a satisfied result that makes my family and I feel good bout it

hmm.. nothing to talk much now..

will update soon :)

bye

Holidays!!

for this year 2010

I just feel this year just passed just in a blink of eye

especially school times..

don't you guys think it just passed too soon?

and some more some friends are leaving

why can't the time be slow down to spend more time with friends?

but no one can slow it down

we have to just keep moving forward now

there's no turning back already

the only thing to do for this years form 3 students is just waiting for the PMR result to come out

the result day was on 28 December i think

long way to wait~

but now I decided to take pure-sci class 1st

if I can't handle it

I will just drop class then..

seriously until now i still don't know what to be in future..

I tried to find many occupation that related with science

cause I don't know why I like science so much in my life

so i just try to find a job that suits me

i think before doctor, dentist and even pilot!!

LOL

until now I still got no idea what to be

but now I focus more on my violin practice 1st

cause i got exam

makes me feels stress bout it

hais..

now holidays makes me feel bored

cause can't see and play with my friends

want ajak them keluar but no money

overall one word only la

SIEN!!

due to holiday

i have to go to my parents office to work

better then at house starring at d computer

keep playing computer also makes yourself feels boring..

hais

that's all for now

byebye

Internet is BACK!!

Finally i gt back my internet...

Thank GOD for that cause i have about few months didn't touch my computer already

among that few months many things happen..

exp. -PMR has over

-Seibudai High School Japanese student exchange programme 

and others i just had forgotten..

About the japanese visit things...

There were many pretty and KAWAII girls i met there

all my friends were happy bout that (including myself)

i just manage to take a photo with a pretty japanese girl

i was happy to had that opportunity to take photos with them...

and i did make some new friends with them...

they were very friendly and kind to us

we try to communicate with them

we tried our best for that

eventhough we can't understand what are they saying

most important we are happy during that moment...

during that day they visit us..

we manage to intro them some of our Malaysia's cultural lifestyle and food

the japanese students also took the chance to taught us about their common things that they did in the normal days like making Origami

all my friends and I had a great time with there

i just hope that we can join this activity again..

perharps next year i hope

i'm glad that this activity can happen in our school

i hope that we had the opportunity to visit Seibudai High School this year or perharps next year...

actually there were this trip for us to visit them..

due to the H1N1 case

the trip was cancel...

I hope that in further case we can visit them at Japan in further

we will try to learn more about them if this trip was remembered by the principal

hope that this trip will happen in the future

xDDDDDD

I just gave up instandly

Since her birthday had passed 2 weeks ago

many thing just happened without a warning

it just happen like a natural disaster in my heart

i admit tht i have chase some girls before last time

but i think tht this time i have hurt myself the most in my life time

i don't know why it will happen like this to me

i just can't accept the truth of it

on tht night of her birthday

she suddenly sms me and told me a things tht happened in her bus

after i saw the message tht she wrote to me

the message was quite long

after i read tht,

i was just completely stunted and speechless

after days and days had passed

i tried to sms her whether is it true tht what she told me

after she replied with a positive

i was just...

distract from the reply tht i see

i can't believe it happen on both of them

but nt me

For these few days

i was just thinking tht

why God didn't let a miracle happen on me?

i was just hoping for a single miracle tht can happened on me

but it didn't happened on me

nt even once

i was struggling to find the weak point tht i didn't realise on myself

i was thinking for days and nights

but until nowadays

i still can't find it out

i was just hoping tht God will tell my weak point

After tht incident happened

i just gave up on what i did on her

i was completely lost direction in anything

when tht incident who happening

i was having my PMR trial exam

in the exam i wasn't really focusing on my exam

because of thinking back of what she told me by sms tht day

when i'm still in a bad mood tht day

i was just thinking

"can i take back my money from you on what i bought for you?"

"total it cost about RM200 on it"

i was completely out of my mind on what i said to myself

so sometimes i think tht "love" is also a great power for everyone of us

Now my thinking had change back to positive already

now i'm at least better then tht day tht i have negative thinking

i must thanks for my friends who had encourage me all time

without them..

now i won't still don't have the mood to update my blog

 i think God thinks tht i'm still nt suitable to have a date now with people

God just done this for my own good

maybe i also shouldn't blame the Lord

maybe he thinks tht i'm still don't have the strength to protect someone i love

or maybe i'm still haven matured enough in my life time

I will support God's opinion in anything

Thank God for knewing you in my life

you're my Saviour in my life

you are the one who save my soul in any incidents

Amen~

you guys no need to worry me

i will be alright

eventhough i still haven 100% let it go

but i will try my best to

i will update my blog as fast as i gt any new things happen on me

rmb to smile always you guys :)

byebye

could it just happen again

now my things is getting much more complicated then i though

i have no idea what just happen in my relationship problem

is getting very complicated

what just happen between us

since yesterday after my cell group meeting

she has stop replied my message

after i reach home

i tried to call her again

but she didn't pick the call

i was thinking

"what did i done to her? "

eventhough i didn't do anything wrong

but i just sms her by saying tht

"if i done something wrong, pls forgive me... i'm sorry"

but my cell phone just remain un-rung

after that just happen

my mood just went down like an arrow

 during midnight

i was watching FIFA game between England and Algeria

while i was watching the game

i took that chance to try to make myself drunk

but i just manage to drink 1 can of carlsberg

i also serve it with nuts

i go have a look in the mirror

my face was red and also fill with pimples

i was shock to look at my those pimples

it happen cause i had cut down the washing face activity during the morning

from now on

i must be hardworking to wash my face everyday

back to the topic

when i wanna to have a sleep cause tht time is about 3.15am already

but i just couldn't sleep because of the message thing

i just turn on my phone's music and listen

after i listen some few song

i manage to sleep

i sleep until 11 something

i though everything will just when back to normal

but i couldn't though that

it is still the same

my phone just remain silent

nt even a single message from her for the whole day today

nt a single vibration or message ringtone rang from my phone

then i think

" am i very annoying to you? "

then i think that shall i stop sms-ing you for some moment?

now i just started stop sms her for a moment

nowadays my life is just too bored

holidays even make me more bored then normal

i just hope that everything can just when back to normal quickly

i'm sick of these things already

i just hope that everything just back to normal

pray that God will settle this things quickly

so that these things won't effect my education and studies in school

i know that God is always there for us if there is any trouble came to us

that's all for today

good night

Misunderstood her

the previous pose i did say tht she didn't reply me all those stuff right?

i just found out tht

i was wrong

i just tht she gt her some problems

and i just forgive her instead

hahas... what a bang

she also just came back from a trip

luckily she came back in safe n sound

and i also bought her a Hello Kitty soft toys at leisure mall

i haven collect it cause i just gave the deposit for it

i will take it at Saturday

hope she like's it

well... nothing much to say here...

just try to make it understand the things better only

tht's all

i'm happy what i have now

im going to end the talking now

byebye

The 1st birthday present since 7 years old

This year i have a wonderful birthday surprise from my friends

for so many years i didn't get present

this year i can't expect that i can get a wonderful present

is a racket and a badminton bag

they bought the racket about RM100 to 200 ++ 

then it comes with a badminton bad that cost RM60 +

this is the set of badminton i get

is apacs

what a nice racket that i keep wishing that to have one

well.. it looks like a attack type racket

but my friend say is a defensive type
so know i got 2 defense racket plus my old one

 but i'm still happy with it

i want to say thanks for all those have shared the money to buy this racket

i will appriciated it

thanks guys

i will always rmb that what you all had done from me

i learned many things from you all

i happy to have you become the part of my friends

hope tht you all can stay together as friends

love you guys

ok that's it for today

more interesting post will be post soon

byebye